This is sick! I am not stranger to taking the long way home in order to delay my pain! This is normal to me!! I am ok doing this.. I guess it is just part of my "process".. Hahaha..
Every once in while though, something completely unexpected happens... After putting myself through all of this mental drama, I get to a point where, doing it and dealing with the failure is less painful than the mental torture I have happening in my squash!
OK, So...now I am looking forward now to getting my ass handed to me..(again) and then when I start to do the set, things don't seem so bad, in fact... things seem pretty good! I am breathing correctly, my legs are working, by back doesn't hurt... Holy shit!! I am having a breakthrough!! The pace that usually kills me seems kinda slow today?? I just whistled past the point where the reps usually get ugly, Like nothing.... The Kettlebell weighs the same as always, but today it seems "nicer"... Basically, the mental pain was harder to deal with than the physical pain of actually executing the lift!
One time I started a snatch set and things were going great, I was catching the bell perfectly, my backswing felt natural, I was landing the bell in the sweet spot every rep... I actually got spooked and stopped the set for no other reason than it was going too well?? This has happened to me a few times...
So I have learned to not question when progress shows up.. Just take it when it comes and do the math later! Just be grateful and "KEEP GOING" because moments like this are rare... So again, take it when it comes... however it comes... Could be a while til happens again!!
Things do change overnight, you just do not which night!